A Kind Soul

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By peace | May 3, 2007

It takes time for a seed to grow. I have sown my seeds and now it can pick some flowers from my garden.

I have mixed feelings today. Cebest’s birthday was on 2nd May. Yesterday was Cebest’s birthday. He was well last year on his birthday. But this year, he was no longer around. Time flies. Next month will be his one year death anniversary. Yes, no dog can replace him in my heart. I still miss him and of course want him to be back, although that is impossible.

I was hesitating to post about my griefs over Cebest, and many times I want to put up his death photographs, compiled into a videos to put it on my blog. However, as you can see, I never did. I do not know when I am ready to do it, or will I ever. Perhaps when everything is really over for me, and when I feel it is right. I am thinking of creating a little memorial in Secondlife for my little beloved Cebest. I have yet to have the time to do that. My time is very packed. Everyday, I am feeling so breathless, rushing for time here and there.

I do not know if God really exist, but somehow I can always feel that God is helping me. During my studies day, God had helped me in my studies, and ‘looked after’ my family. When my husband left me, God had helped me and he had answered my prayers, though it took some time. Perhaps God wanted me to learn some lessons and he wanted me to grow stronger. Life is hard, the route in front of me is very bumpy, with pits and holes everywhere. I am tired but I am happy and feel contented, knowing that God is watching us. There ought to be a God, but I do not know him enough. Perhaps, he is slowly guiding me.

What inspired me today? A kind soul — I think so, if I am correct to say that. I was filled with awe, with excitement, with joy, with unbelievable sight, that I actually got a donation from a person, a kind soul. I was deeply touched. Indeed I was, at the moment and at the rest of the day. Ever since I signed up paypal, I have learned from people that there are people who will donate to you. Writing blogs and getting payment from googles are peanuts — the revenues I got are too little that it is not worth the time to be writing my blogs and spending so much time on it. However, I never give up. I do not care so much of my results, I just do what I think is right, and what I enjoy doing and ought to be doing.

For the first time, I received donation. I always see people in shopping centers or MRT stations, asking people to donate. On TV, we saw people performing for charity shows and asking the audience to donate to charities. There are so many rich people around and also many poor people around. I am very thankful to this person who donate the money to me. I do not ask for big sum of money, as I always believe that in any business, every drops make an ocean. When I was selling insurance, I treat all customers the same. Even if they don’t buy from me, or if they are small policyholders or big policyholders, I have the same kind of service to them. I do not give ’special’ service such as being extra nice to clients who invest in a bigger policy from me. I do not despise or disservice those people who buy little from me, such that when I service them, I am even paying more (transportation and my time etc) than I got from my commission. I always believe that providing a good service is the most important. It got to show your professionalism.

Likewise, whether I receive donation or not, I still take pride in maintaining my blogs and I try my best to update my blogs as often as I can. Every donation is just a token of appreciation and I am really grateful and it really boosts my morale too. So all I can say is there are really kind soul in this world, the Good Samaritan. Every cloud has a silver lining. Tomorrow will always be better. Thank you for your donation.

Nothing worthwhile comes easily. Half effort does not produce half results. It produces no results. Work, continuous work and hard work, is the only way to accomplish results that last. ~ Hamilton Holt

We’re used to instant results. Computer technology has led us to believe that anything requiring more than a few seconds is slow. But good things take time. It takes fifty years or so to grow a good tree, tall and strong. Building fine furniture requires a craftsman’s skill; that takes time. And forming a mature mind takes time too. You’ve learned not to judge a class by their first day’s behaviour. You’ve also learned not to judge a student by the results of that first pop quiz.

Be patient with yourself as well. Don’t judge your work by one day’s results. Take a longer view. Make your investment of time, energy, and skill now, and then learn to expect a return — even if it takes a while. Excellence is a process, not an event. Let the seeds of knowledge grow into wisdom, and respect into character. Be patient. The most important things take time. Don’t expect immediate results.